Friday, November 14, 2014

I Don't Remember Signing Up for This

It is one of those things they never telling you growing up. Okay, so maybe it is one of those things they tell you repeatedly growing up but being an adult is hard. You have responsibilities, a job to keep, a house to pay for, bills to pay, etc. etc. etc.

When I was in college, I could not wait to graduate and start making money, real money. I have never been a fan of school, like ever. I used to try and pretend I was sick all the time to get out of it (just ask my mom). Don't get me wrong, I loved college. I just didn't like the actual school part of it. I was also working 25-35 hours a week at my part time job at Victoria's Secret so I felt like I was working full time but making nothing. I was sick of having homework every night and being broke from barely making minimum wage.

So when the day finally came and I walked across the stage as they called my name, my REAL name (thanks again, mom and dad...) I immediately felt this sense of great accomplishment. I mean I know a lot of people graduate college these days but it is still a huge thing I sometimes thought I might not get to. The first couple of months were awesome. I just had to work part time at VS and I got to watch my nephew, Lucas, 2-3 days a week. Babysitting him was something I wouldn't change for anything, although it did make me realize just how much work a child can be. But thats a whole other story in itself.

Eventually I started feeling kind of lost, where is my life going? What kind of job am I going to get? How am I going to pay my student loans? Am I going to live with my mom forever? Is there even the slightest chance Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake will ever get back together? Real questons.

Today I have a full time job in Marketing, definitely making more money than I was before but waking up at the same time every morning and going to the same place day in and day out can get monotonous. I love routine, until it gets boring.

This is def my problem 
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I am 24 years old now, I still have no idea what I am doing with my life in the future. Except I am about to move out completely on my own for the first time so I am sure many blog worthy stories will follow. I am about to do an adult like thing and I still feel like I am 16.

When I younger I always thought what my older sisters were doing was forever away and when the time came for me to go through whatever it was I would feel ready because I would be older. Well boy was I wrong! Wisdom does not just come from age, and I am not saying that to sound preachy, it is just a fact. I sometimes call my mom or sisters 10+ times a day to ask them questions or advice. I am the baby of the family, what did you expect?

I just want to know, when did it become not okay to sleep until noon each day and stay in your pajamas for 48 hours? When did watching an entire season on Netflix become strange and lazy and not just funny (or simply amazing?) If wanting to lay on the couch and watch Vampire Diaries with my best friend all day long is wrong, then I don't think I want to be right.

Again I will say: I do not remember signing up for this!

grown up but not really,

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